A.B.N.M

i dont give a damn !

Weird things have been happening around me  or rather i should say ‘to me’ of late…Ive started doing things i never wanted to and never did…like faking to b someone im not…faking to b happy for somethin i knw, im not…n in d end messing up everythin.. !

which was the last thing i wanted to do…coz all my fake smiles, excuses, work style..was to appear as a nice someone…to appear as a goodie-goodie person wid whom no one would hv any grudges..about whom no one would bitch…to whom, everyone would look upto…hahha…n in d end, wat happens is quite d opposite !

So, here on dis “Fools day” , i pledge to myself…No more FAKING ! No more Fake ‘Nicey-nicey’ boy..! time to cut d sh*t happenin around…n prove myself…if im doing somethin i like, im no more gonna hide it…if im chasin my dreams, d world can make all kinds of faces n bitch abt me…bt i dont care…cz im nt gnna gve some crappy stories to cover my failures…cz wat troubles me d most is not wat ppl say about me…but d uneasiness abt somethin dat i say abt myself..which isnt exactly correct…bt just said, cz dats wat d society wants to hear…dats wat would go thru’ deir one ear n come outta d other widout any trouble to d brain…thus, escapin all d useless When? Where? How? What? questions…

I knw im not a fake person…bt jus dat d way ive been handling my professional stuff..i.e.my career n all…hasnt been quite well…so i guess ive been going wrong somewhere..ive been takin sh*t wen i didnt deserve to…ive given ppl sh*t wen dey didnt deserve to…ive had fck-ups wid my career wen i didnt have to…all dis, cz each time somethin happened…instead of being myself, i searched around for d perfect way to handle d situation…i looked fr a situation dat would jus erase out d problem or atleast erase me out of d problem in d easiest way…but yea, i for sure forgot, if uve landed up in mess, u hv to get dirty, even to get out…!

So..now..im gonna jus carry around my true self…handle situations d way i think dey would b handled best…im not gonna be egoistic…bt i want to have d courage in myself to face d problems i create for others/myself…to own up my faults..to hv d sense to correct wat ive dne wrong!

…..and for what others would think of me…for what ppl would talk about what i did…

A.B.N.M

‘Appan bund ni maarde’

(English : ‘I don’t give a fcuk’ )

*Kindly excuse me fr d usage of ‘unparliamentary’ words